June 2019’s MLA (Monthly Look Ahead)

Late getting something here again, lacking focus and concentration lately. May turned out to be a hopelessly haphazard struggle against some odds. Less said the better for now, it’d most likely seem crazy paranoia if I even began to try to elucidate & essentially personal impacts were of an external variety with other folks confidentiality to guard in the mix, so, onward for June… joining in with https://coolbeans4.wordpress.com/2019/05/31/monthly-look-ahead-june-2019/

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I didn’t manage to achieve anything toward M.E. Awareness Month, tho’  truth be told I get really fed up with focussing on M.E. stuff. However it seems quite important while social media campaigns are potentially unbalancing perceptions of myalgic encephalomyelitis via popularised campaigns and public information. Maybe it’s aimed toward creating a client base and/or job creation scheme and/or funding & financial advantage somehow else. Very discomforting. Enough said already.

photo of my hand-made mini-books. Top: mini-book, titled Rough Work 1, with red ink writing on brown cover. Centre: open mini-book, left page reads Focus on one thing at a time; right-side page shows a doodled flower. Lower mini-book pages, left-side reads Every day is a new blank page... how will you colour yours?; right-side reads Smile you never know whose day you might change.
My handmade mini-book projects started in January, abandoned soon after. I really must get back to a little hobbying somehow!

So far this month, as well as getting out to the local shops THRICE, I actually got some windows shopping done and overspent on late anniversary/birthday/xmas treats whilst excusing myself some early xmas shopping too (not pictured!)… just in case Amazon etc. go kaputt with the problems Brexit appear to hold in store for us Brits…

I’m really looking forward to reading this book! I’ve only read as far as the second chapter and love that I started reading it when I did… to know why, you’d have to buy it for yourself – it’s available on Kindle if you prefer digital books. You can find a link to V Donovan’s ‘The Time Company’ at the author’s coolbeans4 blog.

I’ve spent some minimal /maximal enough time in my yard soaking up some natural daylight and fresh outdoor air, trying a little ‘physio’ & have tackled a tiny fraction of the gardening and yard work I need to achieve. In the next few weeks we should be having gates fitted on the front yard and then it’ll maybe feel safer kicking a ball or lounging out there. For my back garden I’d purchased some fence panels online during April but there was a mix-up or courier scam and as yet they’ve not been delivered (or refunded). So there’s a to-do to sort asap, and hopefully not a problem now outside the 30 days standard consumer protection timeframe for being a snail…

Snail on my doorstep earlier this month (June 2019)

As you can see in the pic below, my back garden’s an overgrown wilder-haven, in need of some attention for sure – although ‘aggressive planting’ was recommended by the local authority for security in years gone by. Dunno about these days, but security’s essential.

A fairweather gardener, it’s never a fair enough day for the effort for sometime… somewhere hidden in the undergrowth are some fuschia plants I’ve been neglecting to transfer to their tubs. Oops. Maybe I’ll catch up with gardening.

And for the first time in several (maybe seven or eight) years I visited a local country park for a stroll… Hopefully I’ll be able to get out more again soon and perhaps make it even further afield. I used my old mobile phone to video my 20-minute walk around part of the park, but dozey me didn’t notice I was filming upside down, although it’s quite a good disorienting effect. I’ll maybe get round to uploading it to youTube if I can reduce the file size or edit it somehow.

The pedestrian entrance to Nottingham city’s very best country park and nature reserve, image cropped to show ‘we count’.

I’ve not found my newest mobile phone yet and that’s quite a nuisance. I need to move some things and get down to floor level to really be sure it can’t be found before reporting it stolen. If it was stolen, it was from my home during trespass by someone who heard where it dropped. Hopefully it is here and my sometimes nightmare neighbours’ associates aren’t pesky thieves(!) I don’t mean that my neighbours are nightmarish, but some visitors to their households seem so.

Well, other than nursing my overdraft, self-care toward optimising my health, enjoying music and books, getting on with some spring-cleaning and keeping up with basic chores now I’ve cleared this year’s backlog of laundry and washing-up, making time for a little creative hobbying and getting back to blogging better sometime whenever, I don’t really have much else planned for the remaining days of this month…

All images in this post are my own photographs snapped during June 2019, excepting the Monthly Look Ahead badge designed by the challenge host at coolbeans4.wordpress.com














Monthly Look Ahead ~ April 2019

I really can’t believe it’s been six months since I managed my blogging enough to make Monthly Look Ahead ! (This link opens in new tab to challenge host’s April MLA post.)

I finally found my long since misplaced mobile phone, dropped in my home over two and a quarter years ago. It’s long since out of contract but a handy camera to have to hand. Oddly enough it turned up in the pocket of one of my old jackets, although I was certain it had fallen behind and under furniture where I couldn’t reach it!

I’ll be looking forward to spending more time outdoors appreciating nature, hopefully.

I don’t usually succeed in capturing photos of birds while skywatching, I’m far too slow and shaky, but I snapped this handsome creature a couple of days ago whilst outside in my garden…

Possibly a crow; a large black bird in flight carrying a twig in its' beak.

Now, while I found my old lost phone, I managed to drop and lose my new mobile phone! Again, I dropped it at home, indoors somewhere, during absolute exhaustion and ongoing problems with illness(es). I expected to find it but it somehow can’t be seen for looking. Fortunately it’s PAYG not contract so I’m not losing anything but use of it for now. Hopefully there’s not been trespass and theft on the rare occasion I leave the house. I expect it will turn up just like my old one has, only much sooner…

Hmmm. I had hoped to be enjoying the A to Z challenge again this month but so far it’s not happening. Other than as an active reader, when I get there to it. I’ve some lingering challenges to finish up from last year. Hoping for some improvements in consistency, reliability sustainability…

I’ll be trying to catch up with reading blogs … and I’m part way through a couple of books and hope to finish reading these before this month ends(Link opens in new tab to Recycled Book Reading Challenge post at my other blog.)

I’m not particularly looking forward to Easter as I can’t help feel it’s been scheduled for the wrong time of year and as if we missed it already. Mother’s Day seemed odd being at the end of March too and Monday 1st felt like it should have been a Bank Holiday here in England.

Brexit! Something else I’m not at all looking forward to! We’ve already been experiencing the dodgy influences of capitalist food manufacturing and retail intrusions, such as dodgy food labelling, failure to meet UK Law on Trading Standards and the Trade Descriptions Act in all kinds of ways, eg. cyanide being used in anti-caking agent for salt (and the EU food safety website appearing hacked as if cyanide’s being deregulated!) Fingers crossed Brexit won’t happen, but I guess that’s naiive and we’ll have to grin and bear the ‘deMOCracy’.

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Time out might have to wait, along with Art…

Having purchased the streaming file for the ‘Unrest’ film instead of the download file I’d expected and not noticing the product change at time of purchase, I bought the DVD before Christmas and though I played it once I haven’t actually watched it properly yet. It’s a joke really. While thousands upon thousands of people have bigged it up and absolutely lauded it I’m not sure I’ve seen a reasonable review of it since it came out. Perhaps one (review) but I get the feeling no-one’s supposed to actually talk about that project other than in Emperor’s New Clothes style. Crazy stuff. At least the DVD front cover makes clear the main personae ARE actors.

I treated myself to a portable small screen DVD player to watch it on, avoiding putting the disc in my laptop in case the intrusions are as dreadful as they’ve been having looked prospectively as a potential customer at buying the film while it was being so heavily promoted. I might sooner watch ‘The Devil Wears Prada’ as that’s been on my ‘To be watched’ shelf for several years longer than ‘Unrest’ has lingered there.

The horror (snuff) film Unrest has afforded full page ads since the dangerously confusing and oppressive #MECFS and #MillionsMissing campaigns started. Live social media screenshots prove capital return was the (amateur standards) project priority, with anyone needing to borrow broadband connection to watch a streaming file counted and tallied as revenue loss and piracy. Anyway, one day I’ll get round to viewing the film attentively and giving it a fair review – this month? Doubtful, somehow. I should probably concentrate on HOW do I get their bogus malicious software strings out of my OS, assuming their capitalist wealth and influential powers outweigh the reach of advanced technology providers? (Maybe it’s been auto-fixed in the background… )

I also can’t help wondering how the ‘product’ changed over time and the potential invasions of privacy while disabled   community were excluded from the viewing public for so long. Obviously these issues are still bugging me…

Positive thinking, affirmations, stress management, holistic self-help healthcare, improving nutrition, making life more fun, all these are on my ‘looking forward’ with no real list at all. Shadow boxing, stretching and strengthening… at least, one minute or so at…

An All Fool’s Day shadow of myself, on the right path…

Time in the garden? One neighbours fence got repaired. Again. (Thank goodness the labourer wasn’t really a gravedigger, merely arrived equipped as if one, with no advance warning – unbrushed I maybe scared him as much as he’d frightened me…) and MY boundary fence the other side blew down following the other cowboy outfitter repair crew wrecking it “rotten”.

April’s garden flowers 2019 (photo snapped by myself)

Hmm, I was keeping this short. April. A time for remembrance and celebrations of life. A mixed bag of emotion. “The memory of things…” (Pam, inspiring and respected.) Appreciating…

Oh yeah, and American Poetry Month, with all the highs and lows of learning more about American Literature (it was mostly excluded in State schooling even through Higher Education teachings, due to the criminal publishing industries, although I had no idea how deep and far that stretches throughout modern American culture. Boy I need to practise not seeming so anti-American in my reflective commentaries! HOW to put it more nicely?!







Returning to the Mundane Monday Photo Challenge?

On reflection, it’s a shame I wasn’t on the ball New Year’s Eve or I could have taken part with a photo made on – or nearer the day – unless you count this offering showing one of my New Year’s Eve indulgences during my ‘quiet night-in’ …

However that’s not as fitting a response for MMPC #191 prompt as this photo I’d taken a year ago, on the 4th January 2018:

I’m not sure quite what it is about this photo that makes it so appealing to me. I took a couple of other photos on that same day a year ago that had clearer reflections in different puddles – and one of the sky and rooftops opposite reflecting in the outside of my living room window. Maybe it’s something about the tone and textures and the absolutely mundane and abstract nature of the image that captivate my attention.

Fingers crossed I can keep up with a blogging commitment and return in good time for prompt #192 this coming Monday and onward! If I were making New Year’s Resolutions that goal would be quite high on my list.

(P.S. my uploads are screenshots from my photos to reduce the upload size while I’m getting by with limited mobile data allowance.)

August 2018 Monthly Look Ahead [MLA]


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You can read this month’s MLA post via coolbeans4 here.

N.B: my post below contains a total of 13 original images, all optimised for mobile data usage. [My image files = 1.66Mb total. My text file to copy in is 12kb but adding this intro and ad libbing on the wire, warning for length, should be less than 2000 words but by the end is approx 2150words!].

This data-optimisation is essential for me too right now while home services appear broke. I am the legal originator of all images (and text) in this post except the MLA badge shown above (and excepting the Microsoft image I photographed, screenshot and appropriated using Microsoft enabled basic software, believing it valid legally entitled individualised use).

I was looking forward to trying the wordpress desktop app I downloaded a while ago now it might be really useful, but it needs an update downloading, with no forewarning of how much data that might crunch from my limited allowance.

So prepping via screenshotting my photos and writing a notepad plain text file all seemed like do I really need an app? I really don’t like apps and try to avoid them like the plaague! Trying to keep my wits about me, I’m looking forward to the day I succeed in that aspect most days of most of whatever’s left of my lifetime.

Here’s my images index screenshot…


… in case you wanna skip off sooner rather than later having seen a little of all those pics… in no particular order of course… they all follow individually through the text of this post, but unfortunately visual describing will need to wait until I have home internet and better physical functionality again.

As I sit pondering my Monthly Look Ahead post for August 2018 I wonder how on earth with my physical limitations I can make any planning of things to look forward to this month AND make it interesting for the reader somehow while stuck almost totally housebound – somehow more fun whilst keeping it achievable??? I should probably give up trying. Almost everything I’ve ‘looked forward to’ in previous posts hasn’t happened yet(!)

I did at last buy Jen Brea’s Unrest film last week at Standard Definition (by choice, not wanting super-sharp cutting my eyes to bits!) expecting a download file. Nope, for a bit less money than previously available I got a watch online on amazon site product, just a day or two before my internet access cut off! It is as if she never wanted people with M.E. to be able to watch the darn thing. But that’s probably not so and just one of those things. Hopefully she’s not part of that bogus campaign muddying the waters to misrepresent how patients with my systemic disease might present.


I have weeks at a time of silence and it pains me so to not be able to enjoy music. Participating in musical enjoyment is therapeutic, singing is deep core muscle and respiratory excercise while needing to avoid aerobic exertions. I am not reliant on digital consumption and avoid it like the plague, so have plenty of listening opportunity offline from old archived discs – but my #newMusic Lunar tides EP paid for and downloaded from bandcamp works offline fantastic! So enjoying the loudest possible sounds and sensations of music is very high on my ‘looking forward to’ list…

Staying offline and off tech doesn’t help me get anything more done or feel any better either.


My internet access gazumped having been fine overnight to wake to find it dead and gone on 1st August. coincidentally Microsoft updated me an odd opening image to my laptop’s desktop screen. “What’s life like in a science research outpost…”?!?WTF!?!

No idea if my aging router is at fault – that’s been playing up since they upgraded my speeds almost two years ago and often on the blink even before that. If I were paranoid I’d have been thinking it was deliberate communications curtailment – and I’m sure I have sometimes felt it was that very thing.

outpost postcard 04082018.jpg

[Previously published on twitter, but I am the copyright holder of the appropriated image.] I look forward then to making more ‘postcards’ from whatever gazillions of files I created or the few generics saved from pixabay/splash etc.

My laptop was holding this overnight ready for my re-awakening, so I had to snap it in response…


Finding another way, I finally dragged out my emergency mobile hotspot I bought from another ISP so I have some very limited data allowance and minimal access for anything I’m impulsed to consider urgent enough.

I am looking forward to sorting my issues and dispute with my home ISP – but I was looking forward to that way back when too!

So until my replacement router arrives mid-week perhaps only to find that I have to pay £13.60 for out of contract and wrote snailmail to cancel disappeared mobile phone from my bank balance of £38 to last ten days, still needing electric and food (but rations enough if I choose to suffer emergency rations instead)… while they owe me much more than £600, maybe over £1000 in refunds etc etc… I’ll look forward to getting it together and adding it all up properly!… we’ll see then…so my new router might not even get authorised to allow internet access.

So I’m looking forward to gauging how I can somehow keep myself internet happy with only mobile data usage from another provider. it just means it is how it is and I have to put up with the added sense of isolation.

I bought a new mobile phone from another provider to find I have to be well enough to go back to the store for a PAYG voucher or change my email address to receive a digital download of a ‘paper voucher’ when apparently my receipt for the phone should have included a voucher number! Three months having a new phone that I can’t make a call, send a text or use the mobile internet via their services!

But I can tweet at them from this other old mobile hotspot provider and maybe sort it now I found there is definitely no voucher code on a receipt when buying the phone and only a top-up card to use when paying in-store. Aaagh – I’d have expected a sales assistant to tell me that when I was instore collecting the phone I ordered online. It’s been working as a hand-held internet device while I had internet enough and my youtube on it is optimised for mobile data – but still munches it so fast. So you-tubin’ MetOffice weather forecasts only for now. Camera works but it ate my memory!

So I’m looking forward to whenever I get back the freedoms of internet access and the luxury of mostly listening while ‘watching’ some vloggers I’m following.

#skywatching – I forget to post online but do skywatch almost daily at least once or twice and always looking forward to spend more time with it. However, when I think I’ve barely done any skywatching during any given month I still might find I’ve taken 400+ photo of skies from home, even if they are lo-tech old BB snaps for having clogged my new phone’s memory with no easy way to transfer them and bluetooth being such a lengthy excercise! Old BB snaps are good enough, especially if I need to screenshot them for mobile data optimisation! Rarely I might make written or sketched notes and should look forward to journalling them to fill my days and any sleepless nights. They all seem full enough for basic survival efforts without that inclination adding pressure. but I might enjoy it!


I was glad to still have full online access to NASA coverage of the lunar eclipse overnight 27th-28th July 2018, as the cloud coverage made it impossible to see for most of the UK. Skies were drab on 28th I think, until sunset colours appeared in the Eastern skies by evening…


and then got interesting again by 29th (think I must have missed 31st, maybe both myself and the skies were just too dull to be bothered!)


The final one below made me reflect on the volcanic activity from Kilauea and the happenings in the Eastern Rift Zone of the Big Island aka Hawaii. I am missing my updates from @DoingHawaii mostly, but hey… I have to be patient…


So yeah, skywatching is high on my personal agenda. I’ll probably add my full low-resolution images to my skywatching blog elsewhere (blogspot) at a later date. I will look forward to be able to do so, if not this month… whenever…

I’m looking forward to making a TFIBritain (=This Friday in Britain)
post later in the week/month and actually remembering to link it to Joy’s ‘BritishIslesFriday’ challenge!


Real news versus fake news:

I’m very looking forward to catching up with #brianharvey while he’s subject to corrupt criminal proceedings – and wondering is Ian Puddick also being prosecuted for malicious communications then, because he should be! Of course Puddick has money and there’s no such thing as Fair Justice or balance in the UK Criminal Courts. Crazy times! Wish I could look forward to being well enough to go protest!

Also hoping very much to hear good news from the #freemelanieshaw campaign after her court hearing due this week on 7th. But the ways things are in my country I’m not sure I can realistically be looking forward to any such thing much!

Hopefully I can still access the news though, but the news services don’t half seem a load of rubbish, often anything other than the real news while they try and shut down real news sharing via social media and will criminalise the troofsayers – making an example to shut us all up? Calling real news ‘fake news’ and giving us loads of fake news as if ‘real news’!


I haven’t yet analysed data use for my SCBI (SimCityBuildIt) app on my android, but fear that’s too much too. My league effort is ruined and I let my club down by not playing at all this week, but…


At least I completed my challenge and earnt my reward of… an iconic Music Festival …of course I can’t do anything with it, but having no internet makes no difference to that! I am missing just relaxing and shoving graphic icons into factory and production slots and trying to add up well enough to meet challenge demands and time management constraints. So I will look forward to playing a little if and when I can. It’s the only thing my android tablet is much good for. Fingers crossed then.

The data allowance I have could last 3 months if I don’t waste it and use it only sparingly. But I found looking around a few blogs doesn’t take too much so far, maybe depends on photo quality within posts and things like that. Nor does being online making this lengthy post. Hooray! Still, I look forward to less isolation and more freedom of choice.


I had been looking forward to taking part in #DrawingAugust on twitter and via my blog, but being offline doesn’t have to stop my trying to draw every day and worry about posting sometime later. I hadn’t managed to draw a thing since April’s A to Z challenge and must make more effort, I’m really rusty again. I am very looking forward to some serious concentrating with drawing attempts!

I’m always looking forward to family time and hopefully there’ll be more of that again soon.

I’m always looking forward to health and mobility improvements and one of these days I’ll achieve some!

(I should look forward to vignettes perhaps…)

I was looking forward to the NHS improving standards of care having seen it’s now decided to allow doctors to prescribe cannabis oil – then I remembered that under NICE Guidelines 2007 for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis and/or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (being different and NOT the same thing!) anyway, doctors can only prescribe those medicines in the NICEGuide2007 recommended list – mostly only useless harmful medicine like paracetomol, ibuprofen and anti-depressants for pain relief(!) and NICE2007 is not due for review until 2020! So that’s another inequality to look forward to.

I’m still looking forward to the year 2065! That’s when the classified info will be made public that almost definitely includes my blood test results and those of others affected by M.E. during the 1980s, held at Kew research, previously due for public release 2025 and re-classified in recent years until such time as we can all be expected to have gone to hell.

Cheerful this ‘looking forward to…’ innit. Sorry about that. I made every effort to capitalise all my little ‘i’ occurences though…

So, maybe this month’s theme is ‘failure posts’, apologies again for all my previous inconsistencies and failing to post… and I sincerely hope your month brings many happy things to look forward to looking back on in the future!

Final thing not to miss on my list: Recycled Book Reading Challenge ~ posting something for that at my main blog sometime soon enough – surely I can just relax and read a book!!!

Apologies for another rant! Next time maybe I’ll try going back to a simple short list!

By the way, I might only be posting from my micro-blogging site (swishing4th.com) if my access remains curtailed so I’d best look forward to picking up over there again very soon…

PS: @wordpress.com – I’m looking forward to return of PDF capability for saving my draft off line too, thank you! Guess it’s a copy to OpenOffice then… maybe it’ll PDF once published(?) and maybe it’s different on the sites I paid for from wordpress(?) Oh my days, #MLA! over and out…