all in good time? …MLA (post intended 1st March!)

{This post was ready on 1st March. Human error: I seem to have only saved it to draft, and forgotten to publish. I can hardly believe it!}

Belatedly

happy new year!

(I’m being archaic, i know, but traditionally, the new year starts here, tomorrow, 1st March!)

And maybe, just for a change, I can join in with this in a timely manner…

Monthly Look Ahead challenge badge (original version) designed by challenge host Cool Beans 4 dot wordpress dot com

… on exactly the day the challenge response was intended – although challenge host CoolBeans  has always welcomed my efforts, been very nice about my lateness, sporadity, scatty sometimes hightly-strung expressions of self and circumstance and so forth…

If you should wish to join in, this month’s post to pingback/comment at can be found hereI hope it’s still ok for my using the outmoded, original version of the badge for this post. I love the new one too, but February is my special month for remembrance… so are April and November… if ok, I’ll maybe change up for summer, then revert for winter, or maybe I should stick with this colour, purple. That’s ssuming I’ll sustain blogging activity this phase round, and ever hopeful 🙂

I’m actually wondering how many things I’ve listed previously that I’ve still NOT done. And I will try and remember to capitalise my ‘i’ at all times in the remainder of this post but reserve the right to not edit the first -oops, and second, occurrences 😉

“Who said don’t look back?” I am definitely looking forward to listening to music more often and participating in the meditational activities of movement and deep abdominal muscle excercise and deep-breathing, airing my lungs via crooning along with ole crones fogies like … all sorts. Grunge. Especially.

I haven’t seen the film ‘Unrest’ yet – and really should given all the hype and promotional support that it’s still garnering. [bugbare#1] I missed it when it was showing at one of our local arts theatres – but then I saw nothing of the marketing to be aware it was even showing there until after the event. That particular venue’s ticket prices are usually steeped anyway and most people with my condition might not have been well enough to get out and see it either. When the DVD is for sale on Amazon then i’ll definitely buy it, but no way am I paying for streaming content that might alter or disappear from my hard-drive or suffer hardware breakdown and thus lose it and NO way am I inputting personal data to an unknown capitalist venture project’s website just cos they made the film! It all smacks of quite concerning dubiousness from the moment I ever saw mention of it. Perhaps it’s just my suspicious mind. It is however very, very expensive for the type of film (assuming low production costs) and for the type of suggested motivations I would have expected patient-friendly accessibility and price range. Taking advantage of a disadvantaged and disabled patient community is hopefully NOT the driving force behind the project and hopefully nor is peddling to our NHS the type of drugs that the marketing made mention of. Because M.E., currently becoming recognised and labelled in the U.S. as S.E.I.D. (systemic exertion intolerance disease) is a shape-shifting monster and every individual is unique with some common factors but unique physiological/disease profile. Yet I feel an urgency to watch the film fearful it might not be evenly representative, that it may well be setting or confirming the supposed stereotypes of what severe states of my diagnosed condition are supposed to present as / look like. I’m a council estate kid (s’posedly grown-up now of course) and most of our kind never receive a diagnosis. I don’t consider myself fortunate to have been diagnosed. [bugbare#2] Diagnosis (ie. M.E.) is a blight that excuses medical negligence (such as failure to investigate and diagnose other co-morbid conditions ie. heart attacks and so on, thereby denying access to appropriate medical treatments), social neglect, systematic abuse and discrimination. So, am I looking forward to seeing the film? No. The marketing slant changed and apparently it’s ‘a love story’. I don’t particularly enjoy love stories. But yes, I am looking forward to seeing it so I can give it a fair chance and have the opportunity to form an opinion and perhaps post a review having seen the darned thing! The other dubious quality the film has is being so easily confusable with the horror film of the same name, Unrest, that apparently features real cadavers. ‘S’nuff of that. Such things shouldn’t be allowed. And for the ‘disability-focus’ version of the film I’ll one day maybe see: a look at the lady glammed up for the marketing pertaining to the main ‘real-life’ character, well her ‘look’ reminded me of Cruella daVille in the blockbuster spotty-dogs family film and it just creeps me out the more of the little I see and hear of it. And no way i’m ever leaving MY body to medical science if they gonna let dodgy film-makers do weirdo things like make the horror version of Unrest or whatever other crazy shit some people might do for ‘arts and entertainment’ and whatever.

Anyway. What AM I looking forward to this month?

My birthday! Nothing much will happen. No point making plans. I will enjoy the day as every day, in whatever way I can. (I’ll look forward to completing that poem, although it wasn’t intentional… mental note, to-do). Maybe I’ll trek to the nearest local shop for my pre-pay-lecci-credit and grab myself a small booze-up opportunity. Nothing like feeling well enough to get hammered – and the oxygenation of one’s legs the morning after can feel such a tremendous relief! Nothing else has that effect than alcohol – shame to be too ill to be able to drink the ‘recommended amounts’ as per healthy government guidelines 😉

I’ve had ‘bake a cake’ in the ‘would like to…’ section on my to-do list for what feels like forever while I have all the necessary ingredients and facility… y’know the score… erm, I might’ve given you entirely the wrong impression with that last choice of phrase and the only shit I smell on the rare occasion I walk the streets (meaning of course, being pedestrian) is that dreadfully chemical awful smelling stuff I can only guess is what anyone might mean by ‘spice’. So if I were fortunate enough to come across weed it’ll probably only be my neglected garden amidst a rush of Spring growth. Ah, if only for true medicinal relief to enjoy some gardening! What a godforsaken world/country we live in. I could try pot plants indoors. I’ll look forward to obtaining some compost (this month?) and post some pictures, if I manage to get anything growing. My seeds are reaching or beyond their use by date. Rocket. Lavender. … Not sure they’d all be suitable for indoors… I’ll have to check the packets. Too much wishful thinking and not enough getting around to it!

yeah, right! What is this, new year resolutions? Wrong time of year in spite of new year traditions to attend. I wonder what anyone did to celebrate surviving by this time of year. Well, I’ve not made my gift-giving visits yet and by now, I decided most of what few things I brought for presents wasn’t good enough, and might be lazy and throw a coin at ’em instead. Confession: I ate the chocolate goodies myself thinking they’d expire, then spotted they’d still be good by a while after April Fool’s Day, aka Easter (I just love it when that happens, cultural traditions tells us a lot.) I always feel like celebrating christmas in July when it’s warm and the sun is shining. But christmas is neither here nor there and wholly beside the point.

Getting back to better habits! Blogging habits, of course! I wrote two long posts so far this week at my main blog – you might not want to read it all but you might enjoy skimming to see my pics there. You know where to go for that one maybe, if you so wish…

Snapping! I’m looking forward to playing with more mundane everyday stuff in my artsyness ways with assemblage and photographs of assemblage type just happens to be there – clutter and the like. I like. I do these things for my ‘child-i’ (sorry, that ‘I’ has to be kept small too, otherwise it is entirely incorrect).

We had snow today! It’d be the most wonderful thing if we could just have snow at least all month! I’d so love there to be enough snow to make my mooc-inspired art project as enough snow arriving is crucial to the concept (or rather to the making and realisation of my idea) and I cannot progress nor complete until the weather improves with enough snow. My fencing getting repaired’s waiting on that unlikelihood too. (the weather improving, not snow arriving!) 

Can’t resist sharing a photo from today’s *snowfall* inspired activity:

a used firework, ie. stick and casing, showing the words sky diamonds and juxtaposed with a wall-mounted room thermometer

I know, stupid photo. maybe. But I like it. I captured it during snowfalling. A snap from the stuff that was easily to hand to celebrate while upon my pieds (aka feet, naturally). Against the backgrounds of my living room wall and refrigerator, conveniently placed for psychological warmth of the wall thermometer slightly even though the air in the room will be cold as it increases the reading and even more conveniently placed to save the distance of carrying groceries.

Know anyone who blogs stuff anything like mine? I’d love to read and see some. I suppose I should explain (in case you’re not getting my alt-text input) that , except for ‘found objects’ I don’t have fireworks in the house or garden ever other than other peopl’s used casings, eg. the one pictured: one of several I collected from my yard on firework night, 5th November last year while they were falling around me, once or twice dropping on  my head, as I stood watching those sorts of sparkling *sky diamonds* that other people not ever so closeby in my neighbourhood were sending to the heavens that peculiar evening. I prefer snowfall but don’t get quite as much souvenir value from standing on my yard in only snow, although snow has to be among the most precious material substances on earth. Anyway, rockets hitting me  wasn’t as bad as apples and oranges being lobbed at me one evening while I stood in my front garden. I wasn’t even singing. I too often don’t. Honestly.

Cooking anything at all! I just SO have to look forward to more cooking! Especially as after a two month wait I eventually managed to lift the new small appliance I’d treated myself to for Quimbley (aka Xmas) from out of the box and all the way to the scullery-shed (aka kitchen), ready for use:

a pizza cooking in a halogen air frier and the now empty pizza box standing upright beside it (partial view of both objects)
I had no idea it would be such a blindingly bright light – but otherwise happy with my latest plaything                                                                                                                                                                                 – and that pizza was perfect!

As usual, I’m looking forward to eventually catching up with my family, especially my grandkids, and especially as my new grandson entered our world a tiny few moons ago and I’ve still not got far enough to spend time with any of them. And needing to avoid all their vaccinations is a nuisance too, but so is exposure to ‘attenuated viruses’ anytime my standing in a queue, sitting on a bus, or even living in my own home with no direct or even face to face contact. “Fortunately” I don’t have immune deficiency, but over-active immune function that refuses to switch off is usually no fun either – and I not only sense the different types of causative vaccine but I sometimes perhaps show the small signs of meningitis, mumps, measles… atypical polio is the worst, maybe because I had my first polio vaccine directly on my tongue because I didn’t like sugar lumps (I think they actually contained large amounts of artificial sweeteners during a sugar shortage or something and my Dad had told me two were more than enough for a horse and I should NEVER have more than one sugar cube and having only ever tried one and it making me feel ill when I crunched it I never wanted another. So it’s all my own fault, And I’m rambling again.

I’ll look forward to rambling with less ‘woe is me’ one of these days. Why could I not have been born on any other day than the ‘woe is ME’ day! Never mind. I’ll shake loose and fancy free any ole day of any ole week. Hopefully.

So having filled more than my platter’s worth of ‘have something to look forward to’, and some irrelevant running on again, I’ve just realised that this quick post is now a whole day after – in the space of an hour – and at 1am I still need to get yesterday’s lunch! Then another almost an hour checking for typos and re-jigging and running on a bit extra. doh! So I’d bet my britches you’d be looking forward to my rounding this off as much as I am, if only you stayed the length of my drift this far. I hope you’re not left feeling as though I wasted your time, even if it looks as if I forever waste my own 🙂 If not this month, I’ll look forward to tackling the Daily Post’s revamped writing201 ‘class’, some other month. Online learning activity has been burning me out much too easy and I’m (ahem) giving myself a rest from any for a while.

I’m thinking of making some changes to my blog, such as getting off this theme and trying something different, updating leftover issues and tackling some maintenance. Any improvements you’d like to see here or any reader requests/suggestions?

 

 

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February 2017’s Monthly Look Ahead

It seems like only a few days ago I was making January’s MLA post but I managed to achieve some of things in that post (in spite of my lately stresshead phase).

I write this post to join in with the event created by Coolbeans. I enjoy visiting there, even though I don’t share a similar zeal for watching movies or TV, it’s an uplifting blog to read. I liked the idea of using this event for my blogging strategy mostly, to make a monthly plan and set myself some goals. I can’t really plan for any other kind of activity much at all. Keeping up with anything consistently is quite difficult, but the laptop helps keep me awake, so, here we are again, only a day late this time. Hooray!

monthly-look-ahead

I’m using Coolbeans’ original event emblem pic this month (and hoping they don’t mind!) – this is for the purple reminding of remembrance.

February is a significant month for me relating to the loss of both my parents.My Dad died over 20years ago and my Mum’s death was just last year.

 

26 days of February to go… nowhere as fast as ever, on the slow

o does a todo list work in any blog theme or just P2? apparently it doesn’t work here!

  1. Blogging101 / writing101 refresh, SloPo and whatever other learning practises I can manage, trying to regain some increase to cognitive activity levels, while physically exhausted and too soon in pain to manage anything much when up on my feet. I must try not to wear myself out so much whenever, whatever.
  2. Still temp volunteering a little at Blogger’s World (front-end only posting-level access only, no admin responsibilities there); an authorstory to write for 9th, having had a break from posting for it and very grateful to others for taking up the call for posts. I messed up my attempt at helping for a creative writing post, but I’m not practised enough in formal writing, for one thing. Sincere apologies to Pam and others for failing that commitment! Shakespeare401 to work toward for May.
  3. Still needing to visit blogging neighbours more, but reading fatigue not helped by stress of impossible wifi access issues on and off for whatever reasons. I waste too much time unable to escape the stress impacts of the silliest little things! I can’t just ‘go do something less boring instead’ to recall that jingle line of an old fave UK kid’s program, called “Why Don’t You…?”
  4. With contagious cycles of current new onset illness (contracted while out shopping on August 27th 2016) and this negatively impacting my M.E. and other health issues, it’s unlikely I’ll be getting anywhere out and about much at all this month.But I can do very small excercise along the garden path or in the street sometimes (contagion is only a mucoid / close contact risk, potentially, apparently). Funny how the general population have no regard for preventing spread of their own contagions, generally, while some of us have to confine ourselves as if lepers! Maybe because people believe so much absurd NHS misinformation and can’t be bothered to uncover the facts that lay beyond two clicks deep. Socially transmitted diseases mislabelled as STD is also very annoying, so is denying healthcare to M.E. patients so as ‘not to pander to the idea of being physically ill’!
  5. Anyway, I’ve steamed ahead with getting it together better at SwishingUp. It’s been on the P2 theme for ages, but in blog style rather than using it in message-board format. Unfortunately, trying to return the ‘Edit’ label to the posts and pages by ticking an option for ‘front-end editing’ has ruined it and there’s no way to return to my previous chosen style using that theme. I managed some extra customisation there and have more admin practise ‘work’ to do there yet. I might have to look for a new theme similar to how I had it there before or just remove and reapply the theme. Doh! Still don’t know how margins got removed and other stuff messed up there…
  6. I’m still blogging all over the place now and then! Sorry if it’s confusing to have different ‘rooms’ – is it easier to think of them as just a row of scatty notebooks on a wordpress shelf? I know I’m not the only one practising content in different themes. I’ve got to get back to speed at Snailzpace Daily too while Stu’s away so much! Next to music, blogging’s good ‘medicine’, it seems.
  7. I’m still trying to gear up to doing something creative every day, like managing a small daily sketch – but the day often runs itself out without even cooking a proper meal or doing basic things. No good forcing myself off my blog(s), it doesn’t help to fail to achieve anything! I’ve even failed keeping my handscrawled ‘daybook’ again after a fairly good start for a few small days last month. I did this, I did that, gets a bit depressing! I would like to keep a journal but never have yet and if I can’t keep up with entering my daily detail in a simple diary, then, well… I just need to keep myself going somehow better.
  8. Hopefully this month I’ll continue what I intended to post for the DP ‘transcript’ prompt, although that could keep going a while too, here and there; then there’s ‘The memory of things’ that really caught my fancy as an inspiring topic.
  9. Nutritional improvements are quite a necessity as is,
  10. spring cleaning and domestic reorganisation(!) one square yard or cubic foot at a time!

 

 

 

Only seven days later …

Hey Happy Twelfth Night! Just to prove the UK is nothing like a ‘christian country’ kids had to go back to school two days ago! So maybe we’ll get to celebrate the winter festival whenever it next snows!

(Main point of post: If you have anything to suggest to improve the BW forum, please visit the latest sticky post from another committed and respected member at http://blogging101alumni.wordpress.com )

I’m relegated to my phone for now as my laptop/wifi/human-operative-inputter is playing up again! Otherwise I might have shared a slightly icy/frosty new #snaphappy photo -especially as it’s usually #shutterbug showcasing at BW (blogging101alumni…)

I drafted an  authorstory post at my main blog but lost it to a pdf print back up thankfully before the ether ate it. Maybe a bit soon to publish it the way I wrote it but I assume the gentleman wouldn’t have minded. Relatives can be a pain in the troublesomes once they own creative rights though, but perhaps not in John Berger’s instance. Hopefully. Maybe I’ll just share that pdf with an improved draft, if my laptop and wifi will just be more agreeable. I’ll get far enough for a cable soon as … whenever.

Doh! Nevermind… maybe I can get things working better later and add a little snap to it! Maybe. P’raps when all the neighbours within a souped-up-router range get their fairy lights down or something so that my outdated box-that-won’t-handle-the-imposed-soupup-speed-and-still-ripping-me-off-some-more-VM! . Tho’ prob it’s just me messing up somehow and failing again. I usually tend to get the blame. Whatever!

So… I came here to post something… oh yeah, a reminder to self to post to this latest breaking BW post in case any occasional reader mught have something to share there in response or even otherwise. Go say Happy New Year or anything anyway you like and test your author member access if you’ve not dropped in over there for a while. Or shout up as a visiting reader – after all, not all #blogging101 ‘alumni’ wish to be author level members. Especually not with some previously dodgy and oppressive admin volunteer working hard to enact some kind of new vision for the forum while sabotaging the original purpose to enable that outcome. And in our welcoming global virtual community TWICE they were witnessed online engaging in a hate campaign/casre discrimination. They altered their comments so that other group members sided with the culprit and the targets were excluded. Myself and another blogging non-member acquaintance have screenshots enough to prove it. But the system has that info too. So it should’ve been better sorted ages ago.

Said volunteer was super quick to offer me the door to get the hell outa there too! Not a chance! Sign on said door says #blogging101 – and of course that doesn’t exclude the other workshopping members of things like #blogging201 or #writing101 and even poetry or the wordpress community generally.

Gripe over for today. Hopefully.

That’s just how it seems. And while it appears they’re clinging to their position and potentially able to interfere with participation via comnent and pingback linking (maybe, or maybe not) it’d be nice if others might drop by and test the forum capability. Our on-call admin is busy with other projects but hanging in by a thread to try and be available. Obviously reluctant to mess anything up after everyone’s hard work – so outdated info still makes us all look a bit like shoddy no-hoperz. But they did a great job in both the first team effort and in the second team effort of generating a content and event/challenge plan. So there’s a lot of development foundation that could be built on if some very basic issues could be resolved. Dunno even how many or who still or might have current admin or editor level access. Maybe someone in the know will reveal all soon enough. Assuming the original site owner remains as such too, as passing on a site with a quite large member number is potentially non-viable without member consensus(?)

One thought on admin I’d had was that if there were at least a team of eight volunteers, with a rota for one day a week each (and clear volunteer policy/roles & responsibilities) one a day could just check in and reply to posts or comments and the ‘spare’ could just maybe be ‘overseer’ during that week. And maybe our original tech-volunteer might be willing to return to manage forum structure or whatever. But maybe that’s too complicated. That or something similar enough is the only way I’d be able to offer volunteer time. And no way I’d wanna try anything to do with sidebars or widgets etc! No one volunteer should be left so overstretched as has occurred in the past, in an ideal world. But we can all be socially responsible enough to take a moderator role in discussions and excessive control and fear of interactions in an Askinet protected environment is a bit absurd.

I do have my own group project to pick up on sometime but that’s a completely different kettle of fish eg. for curatorial and collaborative creativity, with a local focus and wider reach – and very slow and deliberately so just now.

So, running on again!

Again. If you have anything to suggest to improve the BW forum, please visit the latest sticky post from another committed and respected member at Blogging101alumni.wordpress.com – and you can always have your say here too. Comments should appear immediately unless Aksimet adds them to my spam queue.

Thanks for reading and have a happy day/night and happy whole new year too!

 

Making loo roll and calling it art (like writing)

If you enjoy reading long-form drafts, I had no idea I'd be making one today! Click to enlarge view if curious and unable to read from page....
If you enjoy reading long-form drafts, I had no idea I’d be making one today! Click to enlarge view if curious and unable to read from page…. I don’t expect you have time to read, but link shown below.

Today’s task of expanding comments, led to mid-flow expansive writing. This piece pictured above shows how the short photo post with one paragraph of brief reflection I was in the process of making was expanded by way of a comment notification and being asked a direct question. It now appears to be a 2000 word essay page of loo roll on my blog! I definitely hit ‘expand comments’…from the brief. I’ve also practised some seamless linking and editing for some of the unnecessary wording, usually in opening sentences. Probably typos and polishing still needed.

Thanks J, for encouragement and support to write more 🙂 I’ll get back to my intended short post at my writing101 blog after a short break for breakfast at afternoon tea time! Fantastic distraction, thoroughly enjoying the course of things – hope you are too writing101ers 😀

Please leave a link to your w101 post if I’ve never visited your blog before, or if you have a poll to try, or anything else w101related. Also, if you have any suggestions or feedback for the day whenever task of reader-led-writing, or about visiting my blog at all, I’d love to hear (I mean see/read) your thoughts. Thanks for dropping by.